he had a stroke and passed away in november, every time i go and pass that spot, i freeze. a day ago went to my boyfriend’s mom to pick up his ashes….had to give her a gift from heart to heart…so she gaved me the ashes we both cried…. I am now at peace with my decision to let her go as I know she’s safe and well x. Angels are white, but i know my brother is with me! Lonely, feelings of guilt and misunderstood. Despite their role as messengers of doom and gloom, it’s bad luck to kill a crow. This feather means you are blessed by Divine Power so you should not be scared to pursue what your heart desires. I lost my only child,Declan forever 24, only 4 months ago. Was seriously considering separating from my husband of 19 years, most of them unhappily. I feel it was Declan telling me he was with me. My white feather found in my lounge doorway after visiting my dad who had died in hospital that morning. I was really really down and depressed this eve. There’s always a constant battle in my head, day and night.